My Inner Critic: Visciousness Wrapped in Cruelty Inside Hatred

My Inner Critic: Visciousness Wrapped in Cruelty Inside Hatred "The critical inner voice is a well-integrated pattern of destructive thoughts toward ourselves and others. The nagging “voices,” or thoughts, that make up this internalized dialogue are at the root of much of our self-destructive and maladaptive behavior. The critical inner voice is not an auditory … Continue reading My Inner Critic: Visciousness Wrapped in Cruelty Inside Hatred

SPIRITUAL CANCER

SPIRITUAL CANCER "The most paradoxical aspect of neurotic shame is that it is the core motivator of the superachieved and the underachieved, the star and the scapegoat, the righteous and the wretched, the powerful and the pathetic." -John Bradshaw, Healing the Shame That Binds You Toxic shame, transferred and indoctrinated into me by my primary … Continue reading SPIRITUAL CANCER

HARM REDUCTION: THUMBS UP

HARM REDUCTION: THUMBS UP As a recovering alcoholic and addict who works a program of one-day-at-a-time abstinence, I initially dismissed Harm Reduction as a serious approach to the ravages of addiction. But I have been around (and in) recovery for some time. Long enough to have seen many homeless individuals recycle through detox facilities over … Continue reading HARM REDUCTION: THUMBS UP

NO MATTER WHO GIVES UP ON YOU, NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF.

NO MATTER WHO GIVES UP ON YOU, NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. My untreated Bipolar Disorder took me to lows I never imagined I could reach. Social stigma and the perception that I was an "undesirable" left me marginalized and ostracized. Our "winner take all, kick the vulnerable when they're down" system nearly eradicated me. … Continue reading NO MATTER WHO GIVES UP ON YOU, NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF.

And I am grateful.

I am a survivor of Bipolar Disorder, Alcoholism, and Porn Addiction. With the omnipresence of the omnipotent Higher Power of my understanding, I harmed many others, waged many battles, and very nearly destroyed myself. And to prove it, my soul, and parts of my body, are richly textured with scars -deeply carved fissures and chelations … Continue reading And I am grateful.

“You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging.” -Brene Brown

"You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging." -Brene Brown Today my friend revealed to me that they have Body Dysmorphic Disorder -concerning their weight. Had they not told me, the chances of me picking the Power Ball number would have been greater than realizing that my … Continue reading “You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging.” -Brene Brown

BUT IT’S WORTH THE PAIN

BUT IT'S WORTH THE PAIN The process of letting go of older versions of myself has been one of the most difficult and painful passages in my soul's journey through this material world. Which is actually a powerful statement, as my life up the the initial stages of this metamorphosis had been wracked with emotional … Continue reading BUT IT’S WORTH THE PAIN

Lady Gaga’s 2019 Grammy Acceptance Speech:

Lady Gaga's 2019 Grammy Acceptance Speech: "If I don't get another chance to say this, I just want to say I'm so proud to be a part of a movie that address mental health issues. They're so important. And a lot of artists ... a lot of artists deal with that. And we gotta take … Continue reading Lady Gaga’s 2019 Grammy Acceptance Speech:

WE ARE NOT DISPOSABLE PEOPLE

WE ARE NOT DISPOSABLE PEOPLE From a very young age, my Bipolar mind obsessed and ruminated with the power and relentlessness of an infinite number of John Henry's pounding their sledge-hammers mercilessly inside my head. Sleep, precious sleep, was my only reprieve. One particular rumination that inflicted its torture the most frequently and forcefully was … Continue reading WE ARE NOT DISPOSABLE PEOPLE

Suffering Does Not Isolate You. Suffering Is Your Bridge…

Suffering Does Not Isolate You. Suffering Is Your Bridge.... My experience has taught me that the MOST important time to help others is when we are struggling with our personal demons. No matter how small the gesture may be or how little we can do because of our pain. For years, even after I started … Continue reading Suffering Does Not Isolate You. Suffering Is Your Bridge…