“Cling to the thought that, in God’s hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have”

When I was suffering through untreated Bipolar Disorder and Addictions, my demons were much louder and much more powerful than my angels.

In fact, they owned me and perpetually immiserated me, and those around me. Only self-medication, highs, thrills, and malaptive behaviors kept my demons at bay. Yet they always returned with a vengeance.

As Recovery and the Higher Power of my understanding have enabled me to flip the script to where my angels predominate, I have acquired a tremendous amount of empathy for those still at the mercy of their demons. Mine still revisit me at times. And it took years of hard work and lots of help from professionals and peers for my angels to take charge. Also, I recognize it could all change on a dime if I stop doing my part.

So I understand what the still suffering are up against. I love them, pray for them, and help them according to my resources and abilities.

“Showing others who suffer how we were given help is the very thing which makes life seem so worth while to us now. Cling to the thought that, in God’s hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have — the key to life and happiness for others. With it you can avert death and misery for them.”

Alcoholics Anonymous (pg 124)